Hope Beyond The Suffering

 

Even though my last post was about being blessed I wanted to point something out today and figured since today is Easter it would be perfect. You know we all have days that we are sad or disappointed in a certain situation, this came to mind on Friday as I sat at my grandparents house and watched my sister check my grandfather's bowel sounds. Just to bring you up to date, my grandfather has cancer for the third time. The first thing that comes to mind when I think about him is strong. He is sincerely the strongest man I have ever met and I am not just saying that because he is my grandfather and has managed to beat cancer twice before but he really is something else. He was strong in his work ethic and of course his personality haha. Not a lot of people see eye to eye with him but what can you do? So my sister was crying while checking things out because his stomach was swollen and felt like a rock. I see her cry so I of course tear up. I look at him and he is looking at her worried but then takes a deep breathe and smiles. I had to look away for a second as I caught my breathe. When my sister explains to him that he's fine for now but should really tell his doctor about this. He gets up and like nothing he is back to his normal self and begins to tell one of his many famous Cuban jokes. He loves to make us laugh. I believe he has hope that it'll all be okay one day even in his pain. My point is he isn't unhappy, why would we? For a 27 year old I really don't have much to complain about. Sure I can get a little dramatic sometimes and have bad days at work but as I sit back and think about my life I am overall a happy person. I still have goals that must get accomplished and by the grace of God I will but for right now, this very moment I am blessed and complete. I hope you can take a moment to realize yourself how very blessed you are as well and give thanks for it all.

 

Off topic - Go see the movie "Do you believe?"

You're welcome :)

Abundantly Blessed

 

I usually have a rough draft written out some days before Sunday so I don't have to sit on it too long before it gets typed and published on here but today I was not prepared because I had a feeling I would find my muse on this very day. One Sunday out of the month a few of the church ladies and I meet for what we call "tea time". A time to come together, read about the women God made us to be and put our raw emotions out on the table. Today we discussed our many blessings because we don't really concentrate on how blessed we truly are when we have other issues hanging over our heads do we? One of the few I mentioned was my self control and how even when being bashed because of the choices I have made to get to where I am today, I stood my ground and I pride myself on that. I had been laughed at when I decided I would be abstinent, when I did not want to drink anymore, when I didn't want to go clubbing anymore and of course when I decided I would date myself like I have mentioned in the past posts but with these ladies it never surprises me to find the comfort I need. My inspiration came a lot from one of these special ladies and I cannot express enough gratitude for what she has shown me. The amount of support and love from these women is exactly how all women should be with one another. They build you up instead of tearing you down. They spark a fire in one another because God uses them to be a light in the world. We are abundantly blessed to have each other and I only wish to one day return the favor to each one of them.

 

 I am abundantly blessed to have woken up this morning, to breathe the air I breathe, to have a car to drive to tea time, to sit and drink a cup of coffee in a warming home, to have friends that hug me tight enough, to have clothes on my back, to be able to read, laugh and cry, to be able to witness my beautiful sister in Christ find her perfect wedding gown, to cry tears of joy because she is in love and happy.

 I am abundantly blessed because I have all this and more and God loves me because I am his.